Go away go away go away.

I hate you. I don't care about ANYTHING you have to say.

I'm so fat and frustrated and tired.
I skipped Archaeology this morning, and slept for a full twelve hours.
Mmmmm. = ]
But then I had to wake up. I think I'll take a nap again soon.

I just want to be skinny. I just want to starve. I just was to eat and be invisible and cry and sleep forever.
I don't think my interview went well.
I probably won't get the job, the more I think about it. I'm just a freshman. They didn't ask any of the questions I was prepared for, and just asked about previous job experience. I feel like I didn't show that I really REALLY wanted the job. Or that I would be amazing at it.
Whatever.
I don't even know.


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Ughhhh. It's just one of those days where I feel like shit. I feel so huge. 150. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuck
UGH IM SO MAD AT MYSELF.

My hips are big black fat blobs now. Everytime I sit down my jeans rub against the bruises there. It helps remind me of how fat I am, I guess.
I want to cut so bad. My arm used to be full of bracelets, so I could hide it, but only three are left. I think I'm gonna go make some more.

I feel like I dont belong on PT. There are times I do, but then I remember.
150 lbs. SO MUCH FAT. Maybe ill feel like I belong there when Im 130.
I just feel like Im too fat for everyone there. I dont know.
Everyone there is so small when they think theyre so fat. Its sad.
I'm just a fat girl who is sad. Sad AND fat.

Yep. Thats me.